Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Myself

Through the past nineteen years of my life, the identity that I have reached at this time is difficult to explain. I believe that I have different personalities toward different people. Family, friends, and boyfriend are all part of my life; therefore, I treat them all different. I consider myself a unique person. I feel that whom I am today is due to my past. At the end of the day, it does not matter what people think of me I know whom I am deep inside.

Who am I? I rarely ask that question to myself. I have many sides to me, and one of them is the way my parents see me. Towards my parents, I am honest, responsible, hardworking, studious, friendly, independent, and determined. Whenever I get the chance to have a conversation with my mom I say how I feel and we talk for hours about anything. Recently while have one of our conversations I happened to ask her to describe who I am and one of the answers that I still carry with me is when she said “responsible”. I started working my senior year in high school because in my house it was always taught by my parents to work hard for something that you want. My senior year I had to buy a lot of thing for last year students. I did not want to ask for money from my parents because I felt I was asking for too much. I started working at a fast food restaurant which I hated and made me feel made enough money to pay for my things, like my yearbook, cap and gown, prom, and grad. night. Ever since then I have been working to buy my own things and rarely ask my parents for money. This experience has showed my parents and me that I could be independent, hardworking and responsible.

I like to hang out with my friends, but the question is, do they like hanging out with me? I believe so, they have told me themselves. Another question that I think about is what do they think about me? Wonder what they would say if they had to describe me? Sincerely, I believe they would say that I am a happy person that loves to crack jokes, outgoing, caring generous, kind, responsible, and clumsy. When I am with my friends, I am calm but at the same time hyper. When friend comes to me for help, I stay calm. When my friends need me to do something for them they know they can rely on me. I act this way with my friends because I know that they are the same towards me.

My boyfriend has shaped me to be the person I am at this time. When I asked him about how he sees me he said confident, caring, loveable, unselfish, giving responsible, smart but most of all encouraging. Who I am with my boyfriend is different from when I am with my family and friends because we see each other at different levels. I think he has seen all the sides there is to me and that is something that my parents and friends are never going to see. In his family he has a niece who is five years old I sometimes take care of her. I love her as if she is my little sister. Whenever she needs anything, I am right there to take care of her. Whenever I am around her my kind and caring characteristics tend to show. My boyfriend also tells me that I am encouraging and I strongly believe that. We are both freshmen at college and we both go through the same things like doing homework, working, and going to class. When he needs help in his homework, we do it together or when he feels like giving up, I do not let him. I make him realize that education will take him wherever he wants to go. Sometimes I feel like he knows me more than I know myself. One thing that I could truly say is that I stay true to myself when I am with him.

It has been difficult trying to find who I am. I did not realize that there are many things to say about me. I have discovered who I am today. I am proud of myself. Whenever I am alone I reflect back on my day and I know that overall I am a good person.

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