I learned how to be a college freshman living on my own a semester ago. For some students living on their own could be painful or pleasurable but for me it was both. This experience has helped me be a more mature person as well as responsible one. Once I knew how to live with almost any assistance from my parents that is when knew that I could live on my own.
It was fall of 2007 when I moved in to my dorm. I was alone. I was disappointed because I didn’t have any roommates. Sooner or later not having roommates was a positive thing because I didn’t have anyone to bother me. It was painful getting adjusted to the environment of an all girl school but I knew that is what I had to do in order to get my education. It was painful not having my mother around waking me up and taking me to school because in the car ride to school was the only time we had to talk and now it seems that I never see her or talk to her. Living on my own does have its pleasurable moment. I didn’t have a curfew anymore meaning I could come whenever I wanted. I didn’t have parent always on my back about helping them out at the house. Another pleasurable moment that I experienced was that I had more time to study and get a lot of things done. Back home I didn’t have anywhere to study or simple a quiet place. Learning to live without my parents has made me more mature and I am proud of my self for that.
I couldn’t believe how hard it has been to manage my time but time management one is thing I learned last semester. I was overwhelmed with all the things that I needed to do that sometimes I just felt like quitting. I couldn’t take all the pressure of getting good grade. It was painful to see myself struggling on my own. I then found out that I was not alone. There was hope for me. I could go to the Learning Resource Center at my school and get help. Sooner or later I started learning that there was a lot of help out there and that I was not impossible for me to fail. It was pleasurable when I saw myself the honor roll list. Knowing that I made the honor roll made me feel like I was responsible enough to be living on my own.
I have grown a lot as person from both my pleasurable and painful moments that I have had last semester. For a moment in my life I didn’t think I was going to see myself succeed in college. Some how put myself together and because a mature and responsible student. Thanks to my first semester in college I now know what my priorities are and I will never surrender. I feel strong as person knowing that nothing can stop me.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Friday, February 1, 2008
Today I Feel........
There are so many feeling going through my mind today, but the one I feel most concerned about is being busy. I just don’t know where to start. I wake up busy and go to sleep busy. When will I have some time to myself? It is hard to maintain a busy schedule. Every time I try to plan stuff out, it works out, but I end up not taking care of myself. I feel like time goes by so quickly.
I feel excited. Today, I get to go up to Chalon and meet the girls from a sorority which is recruiting new girls, and I want to be one of the few they pick. I feel nervous as well because I don’t know what to expect. I feel happy that I’m actually going to try something new. But then this activity also adds on to my to-do list, which leads me to be busier.
Today I feel cold.I literally feel cold because the temperature is cold. I need to wear more clothing in order for me not feel cold again. I don’t feel good about wearing a lot of clothes because then I feel heavy and I don’t like that feeling. Therefore, I need to suffer and choose one or the other because things can’t always seem to go my way.
Today I feel tired. I haven’t had a good rest and I need it. I worked this weekend for eight hours and all I did at work was stand up. I got home and I went straight to doing my homework. I feel my body yearning for sleep and relaxation.
Today I feel like working out. I made a bet with three of my friends of who could loose twenty pounds the fastest would end up winning twenty dollars. Therefore I feel like I should start working on that. I ate a lot of junk food this weekend, and I feel like I should work harder than ever trying to loose those pounds a.s.a.p.
The feeling that I have everyday day with me is the feeling of love. There are many kinds of love feelings, but the one I’m feeling the most is the kind of love I receive and give to my significant other, Jimmy. Everyday I wake up to hear his voice that tells me “good morning.” He calls me in the morning and acts like my alarm, and thanks to him I wake up. Love is a passionate feeling, and I’m happy that I feel this way. I love the fact that I feel cared for when I’m with him. At the end of my day if I had to describe in word how I felt, I would say love.
I feel excited. Today, I get to go up to Chalon and meet the girls from a sorority which is recruiting new girls, and I want to be one of the few they pick. I feel nervous as well because I don’t know what to expect. I feel happy that I’m actually going to try something new. But then this activity also adds on to my to-do list, which leads me to be busier.
Today I feel cold.I literally feel cold because the temperature is cold. I need to wear more clothing in order for me not feel cold again. I don’t feel good about wearing a lot of clothes because then I feel heavy and I don’t like that feeling. Therefore, I need to suffer and choose one or the other because things can’t always seem to go my way.
Today I feel tired. I haven’t had a good rest and I need it. I worked this weekend for eight hours and all I did at work was stand up. I got home and I went straight to doing my homework. I feel my body yearning for sleep and relaxation.
Today I feel like working out. I made a bet with three of my friends of who could loose twenty pounds the fastest would end up winning twenty dollars. Therefore I feel like I should start working on that. I ate a lot of junk food this weekend, and I feel like I should work harder than ever trying to loose those pounds a.s.a.p.
The feeling that I have everyday day with me is the feeling of love. There are many kinds of love feelings, but the one I’m feeling the most is the kind of love I receive and give to my significant other, Jimmy. Everyday I wake up to hear his voice that tells me “good morning.” He calls me in the morning and acts like my alarm, and thanks to him I wake up. Love is a passionate feeling, and I’m happy that I feel this way. I love the fact that I feel cared for when I’m with him. At the end of my day if I had to describe in word how I felt, I would say love.
My Holidays
The end of the year holidays is what people are always looking forward to. The traditional thing for me to do for Christmas and New Year’s is to spend time with my family, receive presents, and celebrate. Unfortunately, I was disappointed this year since I didn’t have enough money to buy presents, and I didn’t spend the holidays with my family.
Holidays. I sometimes forget what their real meaning is. To me Christmas is the holiday of giving and receiving. Ever since I was a little girl, our family tradition was to stay up very late on Christmas Eve and celebrate with our family. We would the open our gifts at midnight. It seems that every year that passes by, our family tradition slowly fades away. This year, my family did not celebrate Christmas or New Year’s. My parents did not feel the spirit of Christmas because they did not have the money. I was not working; therefore, I was not able to buy my family any presents either. It was important for me to have money to buy presents because I wanted to bring my old family tradition back. I wanted to be able to see my little brother’s happy faces when they would open their gifts again, but unfortunately this did not happen. The same goes for New Year’s, my family did not do our tradition of counting down the last seconds to the New Year. Instead, my family just saw the holidays as an ordinary day. The holidays in my family were dead. This is the most disappointing end of the New Years holidays that my family has ever experienced. I am not looking forward to next year’s holiday.
What exactly did I do for Christmas and New Year’s? I spent it with my boyfriends’ family. It is sad to say that my family did not celebrate the holidays; therefore, I ended up spending them with him and his family. I loved the fact that my boyfriends’ family had a big party for Christmas and New Year’s, but somehow I felt out of place. I did not feel comfortable knowing that I was celebrating and meanwhile my family was just at home watching movies. I was disappointed because the traditional thing to do for the holidays was to spend it with my family and that did not happen. Even though I was disappointed, I could not ruin the night so I celebrated. I met my boyfriend’s family and that was the highlight of the evening. At least I was not alone for the holidays. I hope that next year my holidays are not the same as the year of 2007.
When I look back at how my holidays went, I feel selfish. So many people do not even have a chance to know what a Christmas and New Year’s is like. Instead, I am thankful that I have friends and family that love me. I thank God that he has put a roof over my head. I also thank God for providing a meal to me everyday. The real meaning of the end of the year holidays is not about receiving gifts, but about being thankful that we made it through another year. People have high expectations of what Christmas and New Years should be like, that is, in the end, wrong. Things do not always go according to plans. I now realize that the word “perfect” does not exist and I should not try to make my holidays perfect. Next year I hope I will spend the holidays with my family.
Holidays. I sometimes forget what their real meaning is. To me Christmas is the holiday of giving and receiving. Ever since I was a little girl, our family tradition was to stay up very late on Christmas Eve and celebrate with our family. We would the open our gifts at midnight. It seems that every year that passes by, our family tradition slowly fades away. This year, my family did not celebrate Christmas or New Year’s. My parents did not feel the spirit of Christmas because they did not have the money. I was not working; therefore, I was not able to buy my family any presents either. It was important for me to have money to buy presents because I wanted to bring my old family tradition back. I wanted to be able to see my little brother’s happy faces when they would open their gifts again, but unfortunately this did not happen. The same goes for New Year’s, my family did not do our tradition of counting down the last seconds to the New Year. Instead, my family just saw the holidays as an ordinary day. The holidays in my family were dead. This is the most disappointing end of the New Years holidays that my family has ever experienced. I am not looking forward to next year’s holiday.
What exactly did I do for Christmas and New Year’s? I spent it with my boyfriends’ family. It is sad to say that my family did not celebrate the holidays; therefore, I ended up spending them with him and his family. I loved the fact that my boyfriends’ family had a big party for Christmas and New Year’s, but somehow I felt out of place. I did not feel comfortable knowing that I was celebrating and meanwhile my family was just at home watching movies. I was disappointed because the traditional thing to do for the holidays was to spend it with my family and that did not happen. Even though I was disappointed, I could not ruin the night so I celebrated. I met my boyfriend’s family and that was the highlight of the evening. At least I was not alone for the holidays. I hope that next year my holidays are not the same as the year of 2007.
When I look back at how my holidays went, I feel selfish. So many people do not even have a chance to know what a Christmas and New Year’s is like. Instead, I am thankful that I have friends and family that love me. I thank God that he has put a roof over my head. I also thank God for providing a meal to me everyday. The real meaning of the end of the year holidays is not about receiving gifts, but about being thankful that we made it through another year. People have high expectations of what Christmas and New Years should be like, that is, in the end, wrong. Things do not always go according to plans. I now realize that the word “perfect” does not exist and I should not try to make my holidays perfect. Next year I hope I will spend the holidays with my family.
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